Been a while since i came here and pen down my thoughts again. How are you? I always wanted to ask. I saw those happy faces, those grins you wore, those eyes that were interlocked between you and her. It proved that, She's the one, that can bring the sunshine into your life, the one that share all your pains and burdens when you are in need. Sorry D. I realized, despite me being so madly in love with you, i really knew nothing about you at all. I cant make you smile as often as how she does, I cant even share a single of your pain. I failed as a friend, and I failed more as one that loves you so deeply. Forgive me, will you? I will stop being the hindrance in your life. I will move on, and get a life. Live it well. You too. Alright? I love you, D, but I know, it's better this way, that you end up with G. Be happy. You were the most painful memory, as well as the most beautiful one. I will cherish it, and never forget. Your name's imprinted on my mind, my heart, and my soul, forever. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's valentines day today.
It's grief day for me.
Have fun, laughter, and joy with G.
I wish the best for u and her.
Be loved, D. Be loved. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
The heartaches and the pain never go away.
The sufferings from love will continue to take flight in a failed chapter of love.
The fear of moving on can be compared to the fear of jumping off a cliff.
The failure of loving one can never be overwritten.
The step to take the leap of faith to go on can never be achieved alone.
The phone keeps beeping, but no messages are from you.
The long forgotten existence of me is just a part of how you forgo me.
The thought of taking your own life, is true and it’s fearful.
The anatomy of love is to love with all your might, and bless the one you love with happiness.
The goal of never to love again, can never be accomplished when you keep poking your nose into my life.
The beauty of imperfections makes me want to perfect them.
The moment to love again can never be attempted. It’s cursed and its ban and it will never start again.
The stares and glares that we attracted as well walk together, makes me feel so love. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Blogging and crying at the same time. Think u can guess how I m felling.
It's really nice to spend an evening with u. Without any
Held backs, worries and stuff. It's tough to face this alone.
I know this day will end, and it will end between our friendship too.
Things will be very very different when move on with her.
I can't love that D that once belonged to me, as he belongs to someone
Else now. I can't care for u as before for I know, someone is
There for u already.
You won't need me in your life anymore.
I will just be the long forgotten seed that had not grown out of the soil.
No one will water me, or give me food.
A lonely valentines day with such weary heart.
It's full of thorns n cuts. A heart that...
That doesn't not even love anymore.
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BABY! We are finally spending the day together this year.
FINALLY! :)
Should i be happy or what? OMG!
I hope you lorve your presents! Spent quite some time and effort,
to go around Singapore looking for them. :D
OH D! You just gave me the light to survive this week.
For the 13th, it's worth all hardwork. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Happy Lunar New Year, Baby. I wished you were here. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Hello Drexler.
I am really thankful to have u as a friend of mine.
Be it if we remain as best friends in future, or we go further ahead,
I am still thankful that are in my life.
There are so many things that you may not know about me,
But I am certainly hoping you know one thing,
How much I Love You.
My heart search through the past, as we were on the line a moment ago.
I found that. It's still racing, at fast pace,
To catch a breath of the words you were engraving into my heart.
I lie awake, trying not to think about you.
All the things about you, And you know the answer.
I cant.
Your love will be safe with me, baby.
It's a promise. I am acting like as though it's not a big deal,
But the night when you said those words,
they were a KILLER. It was really breaking my heart.
The thought of you not facing the truth, is rather heart wrenching too.
I dont wanna tell you how we are meant to be together,
and how great things will be, if we are together.
HOWEVER. If you dont come to see it,
Things will still be the same, be it 60 years down the lane.
D, if we are together, nothing is impossible.
If we are divided, things all will fail.
Round and round, in circles we go,
Till the day, when you realised, could be the day,
When we die. Sad thing isnt it?
Have you ever fallen in love with someone u shouldnt fallen in love with?
That's how i am feeling now.
It's like from the start, it's wrong.
Yet, i cling on to this love, always wanting a reply from it.
Sad thing. Oh sad life.
You never realised, how much you like someone,
until you watch them like somebody else.
I really hope things wont turn out to such situation, D.
I know you want a good and happy ending.
So do i.
Our hearts should unite one day, Drexler.
Dont play the game of hide and seek.
It wont be fun anymore if this game continues.
Unless... You are testing me.
Wanting me to wait a life time for you.
I could and I will.
We both have no idea if we're gonna be together in the end,
But one thing's for sure,
I will do everything I can, to make it happen.
It's worth the fight, seriously.
I am not gonna let go of this battle.
Even if i know i'm gonna lose.
I will love you, for the longest days of my life.
It's a promise I have for you,
My lorver, D. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
making this the last post if it's possible.
I want to let go. Let go of you completely. I cannot hold on to you anymore. It's so so tiring. My life's laying flat because of you. I see all the dull colors in life.
I cant flap my wings and fly, i keep holding back. I bite my teeth, holding back the chill, not to fall for another's passion. You think those phrases on facebook are for who? They are all telling you. Telling you right into your face, how i really felt. You dont give a damm. You dont even wanna care. You can be going through your lousiest moment, but you have GEORGINA! i have no one. I keep rejecting people. I fear to repeat the same replacement love I went through just because of you. I am not blaming you, BUT! I am just so tired. I prayed. Prayed to the God above that someday we will start again, coz you are the one i ever loved. The feeling of first love. The pure and platonic Love. It's no longer like that. You dont love me. You dont even care. You fucking left me, here, all shattered in pieces. I cant even pick myself up. I walk a life of fear and loneliness. I never felt so bad. In and Out of DEPRESSION. Cuts and scars, EVERYTHING. You never know. You never knew! I have never been ok. We are so far. Actually, i wanted to give u this link when you get enlisted. Getting you all encouraged to move on with the new phase of life. Wanting you to know that i am always here, loving you. However. I see it impossible now. You do not want me anymore. You do not even want to care for me as a friend. It's very obvious. We should put an end with it. Our love. A love that never blossoms. Just like the song, we say see you later, but it never happens. NEVER. WE could never go one more round. Your heart refuse to take the risk. Your heart's all protected. You fear that when you fall for one again, you will get hurt again. SAME HERE. BUT I love you. I really do. I never wanted an ending with you. Never would i even want to put an end to this love. I wish i could love you, from today, till... Till I leave this world. I wish I could hold on to the hands of yours, and keep holding it, till I get buried. You really thought holding on to you for 3 years, was an easy journey? What do you think of wanting to talk to you, but always feared of getting hurt by you? My heart cant take it anymore. I dont regret this love, and i never will. Wishing you all the best as a lover, and as a friend. Please. I dont want this to end. I really dont want it to end, but it got to. We have to part one day. Goodbye, D. Goodbye the one that Lindis loves most. I dont need an answer, I dont need a word from you. If you do love me, or ever love me, I would like to tell you, I love you too. D, I love you____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
A hug? can you please give me a hug? I am feeling so weak.
I am dying of your love, love of my life.
FUCK. AND YOU JUST STABBED ME! by thinking that i am a materialistic girl.
SIGHS. Drexler Ong. CANT YOU FEEL ME?
I cant feel you anymore. You changed so much.
You no longer love me. Or maybe. You dont even like me anymore. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I finally understood what true love meant... Love meant that you cared for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face may be. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You will never know pain until you look into the eyes of someone you love, and they look away. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
因為我很愛你，不想要你放棄愛情。
尤其這段得來不易。
我愛你，真的是很愛你，所以想，就這樣繼續愛下去。
時間在改變，请你不要改變。 ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I've already said that I don't need no love.
But boy since i've met you my heartbeat just won't stop.
All I see is you never thought that I would.
But then you fly me up, high above the sky with your love.
At times I feel like I can't go on, no.
And the world is against me.
I know that you'll be there for me,
To catch my fall like Superman. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I dont wanna blog about you tonight.
My heart's grieving.
It's like so fucked up. I cant choose.
If i have to choose. I choose you. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You never knew why I moved on.
You never knew why it was Wei Jie.
Think about it.
Why Wei Jie?
Why do I even choose such a guy like him?
You know it well.
Dont you? Drexler Ong WEI JIE.
A replacement.
It was all just a replacement of you.
I thought that from another Wei Jie,
i could find the same feelings that I had for you.
At first, I thought me and him were forever.
Till. You said. I guess, He is just not the right one for you.
You made me search my heart, so deep till I was scared.
What's the end result of a statement from you?
I left him. I left him for you.
I told you reasons, reasons that Me myself cant even believe.
Did you even see it?
Please dont think that I am blaming you.
I just want to let you know that, many things that i do in life,
are oftentimes closely related to you.
It's like... Every decision, every thought, every action, just revolves around you.
Someday, You will know, and when you find out about how much I have done for you,
It will probably be too late. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Miles and miles apart. We never ever got close.
Till today, we are still so far away. A dream.
A dream that can never be true. Lindis, You have got to wake up.
This love aint a fairytale. Things i want, will never come my way.
This love is so wrong. It's a never, a no and it's forbidden.
9 alphabets away. Never once near. D and L, we are just filled by so many others between us. We can never touch, never meet.
Can i say, I am just not the right one for you?____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Guess even the world's most heart shattering moments, quotes, words, movies, and anything can hold any comparison to how One's heartache can be.
It kills so much. Be it physically or emotionally.
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Never wanted to bid you goodbye everytime we part. I dont want an ending, D.
I know that one day, you will be mine.
It's always this song that reminds me of you. We count our hearts,
We count the days we spend together. You dont realise,
that how much i need your love. How much i want to care
and love you with all my heart. I always hope,
hoping for the day that we will come around and
love each other whole heartedly. It's not gonna happened, Lindis.
I am well aware of that, and i am so sure that.
A day, without Lindis in your life, wont even make a wheeny bit of difference.
Even if one day, I leave this world, without you knowing,
You will probably be still leading your Perfect Life.
Guess my heart will forever be shattered and broken.
No one can mend it, except for... YOU. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Living in misery without your love. Sighs. U will never see.____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
To be your friend, was all I ever wanted.
To be your lorver, is all I can ever dream of. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My Lorver, do you still remember that I like stitch? Remember when you went to HK, and you got me that pair of lovers? I still keep it... As i was hoping, one day, You could be my stitch, while I be your angel. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
18 January is over. Today's the 19.
Do you still remember me, heartache?
If you could see that I'm the only one that understands you,
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me. Have you ever thought that just maybe,
You really do belong with me, D? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Hello D.
Today's my birthday.
I am so happy that you did text me, and wished me.
0118, despite the delay of time, i felt the sincerity in it.
I really wanted to let you know, I love you.
These words didnt come out though.
Charm made me these cupcakes that had the words HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND,
and it had Double D.
See! You just cant get out of my mind, lover.
I get so remembered by you, that everything around me that could possibly reflect you, are all so pleasant to me.
Drexler Ong, when can i tell you my true feelings for you?
I dont want to be friends, I want to be more than that.
Can't you see, Baby?
Can I have a birthday wish, that... You will LOVE me back??? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Till today, I still dont have the courage to say anything.
You say I should take it naturally.
If You are interested in me, you would let me know.
I doubt so. I really doubt you would let me know.
This battle is failing.
I am losing all of you. Sighs. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I am thinking back. Thinking back to how we were 3 years ago.
You turned me down because you had someone else in mind.
You turned me down, probably because you felt that, I was not good enough for you.
Oh D. Why cant you see? I moved on as you never wanted me.
And now. After 3 years, I am back to square one.
Wanting you as bad I use to.
What can i do?
Should i confess or should i hide?__________________________________________________________________________________________________________
DIE! I found your twitter. What should i do?
Should i follow you? OR... Should i just leave it alone? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
The union of a Libra and Capricorn can go either ways - it can be a romantic bliss or a disappointing match. Everything would depend on the level of adjustment both of them are ready to make. On the face of it, the two may seem to be quite different from each other. Their areas of interest are wide apart - while a Libra loves to communicate with people and is a social animal; the Capricorn is a complete opposite. She prefers to be alone, inside her house and love quiet surroundings and is extremely down-to-earth.
The differences in the way they express their emotions and feelings also pose a threat for the couple. While the Goat is least expressive, Libra is crystal clear about his feelings. However, things can turn in their favor with a little bit of adjustment and understanding. While the Libran would help the Capricorn to get over any kind of pressures she is facing, the former would, in turn, will get rewarded with the security she is looking for. The key to this relationship understands from both the partners and lots of adjustment.
Libra Man & Capricorn Woman
The coming together of a Libra man and a Capricorn woman is like attraction between two opposite things. There is vast difference in the two and their relationship may result in a lot of conflict and clash. While she loves to be on her own and likes to be organized, he loves to explore new avenues and is less organized than her, enough to create problems. Though the Libra male is not flirtatious by nature, he loves being the center of attraction and that can make her go green with envy. Compromise and adjustment can alone make the relationship work.
OH MY! please be true. D. I want you to read this so badly,
That it is still possible between us.
Horoscope__________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Can I grow stronger and form a wall that will filter everything about you off my thoughts, my heart and my mind? I cant seem to get you out of my mind. You have toxify it till... Even when i close my eyes, I can visually see u. I am so dead. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
We are picture, future perfect, Lorver. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Cant we give it a try?
Tomorrow's My 21st Birthday.
Can I make a wish to God,
That you can be a Christian, and we can be together till forever?
I know it's a selfish wish, but I want you so badly.
What can i do, Tell me, D, What can I do?
After 3 years, I am still back at square one. Pleading you back.
Only you, can be my MR R._____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
While you were talking about Dulcet Lorve, it have already all started with You.
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Can I be random and tell you, I dont love you?
And that all this while, It's just Me being silly, Holding on to this false hope of life? _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
If only the names on the paper can merge together as one.
How wonderful would that be.
We were sitting by the quay,
& I played the game of Introduction. I want to know you again.
I wanted to start afresh with you, But. I guess, you didnt catch it.
I have your number, but it doesnt mean we can reverse back to the past, D.
It does not mean that We can be as close as we used to.
You would never give me a second chance already. I know that. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
A brave dude in shining armor.
HAHA! Or probably a brave knight.
I am chatting with you on MSN now, as I blog this entry down.
You are one brave chap.
I think you must have hurt alot, but you dont show it out.
I am talking about your wrist.
I feel You, D.
AND! you are still so adorable, telling me about changing colors on your braces.
HAWT AND ADORABLE DUDE, I am totally smitten by you.
HAHA! And you are settling on red for your braces coz of CNY.
I love you, D. I hope this obsession of you wont last.
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A sprain, just a sprain, or maybe an injury on your right wrist,
AND! It's killing me. I am dead worried about you.
Be careful, D. You can play hard, but must take care of yourself. Isnt it?
It's your power hand, Drexler Ong.
You better go see a physician soon.
You can be busy, or occupied or wadeva,
But please take care of yourself.
It hurts to see you in pain, yet, I cant do anything to help you.
My heart's aching.
Sorry, D.
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Dont be a player.
Please dont ever consider a single thought of being a player.
Come on Drexler. You are on guy that I look upon so highly.
You cant simply let yourself down like that.
D, all my friends that I know, as in all the dudes I know,
Cant even hold a candle as compared to u.
You are just so complete, so wonderful,
God made you so beautifully, and i Love you.
Dont even let that thought come across your mind ever again.
Alright?
There's was once, when we were having dinner together at 85,
You shared with me, that. If you were to rewind back,
Back to those days when you were in secondary school,
You unleash yourself, and be wild,
Probably you will be a totally different person today.
Let me tell you this. If I could unwind to the past,
And you let me choose again to know the old or the reformed you,
I would still choose the current, most charming Drexler Ong Wei Jie ever, to be my friend.
Dont let the world pull you down.
Dont let the BAD SIDE tear you apart.
Drexler, dont let me down.
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I regret for telling you so much.
The day was fun, but the night was fearful.
I have got a confession to make.
I wanted to hug you so badly that night.
I wanted to tell you, how much i wanted you.
Sorry D. I am sorry.
I am a piece of paper stained with dirt, N it can never be clean and pure again. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You are one guy, that I can never read the thoughts of.
You are one dude, that always uphold yourself all the way up there.
You are one fellow, that can touch a girl's heart with just one word.
You are one person, that is so faithful that, a girl would never want to break your heart.
You are the one that holds the master key to my locked up heart. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
OMG! I am so god darn jealous.
Who is georgina?
Who is she to make you stay with her throughout her entire gastric flu?
She's so lucky and I am full of envies.
If only you were to know that I am sick for the past one week,
And that you would actually come down and take care of me.
How amazing can that be? ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's 2011. It's been 3 years.
21st is coming.
I fear for that day to come.
3 years of knowing, as though it was like the past.
When we used to work together, and see each other's faces everyday.
We were still young, talking commonly about our results.
You fared much better, and you move on to RP.
I was stuck, and i attempt to retake my O's,
But i failed, even though you gave me encouragement to move on.
When you stepped into RP, we started to drift.
The distance between us, got further and wider apart.
I do not hear your voice as often anymore, and the worst part was,
We stopped texting each other very soon.
I moved on to my airport career, thinking I would really find the right one in there.
Results: Things didnt turn out as how I thought it would be.
Conclusion: I really regret all my past actions, D. Can I turn back time and we go back to how we used to be?
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3 years, and i just realised.
We do not even have any pictures taken together.
Woah. What does this mean man?_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Came across this quote on facebook.
True love is when you are fighting all day, saying things u don't mean to say, but at the end of the day... there's no one else's arms u'd rather be in.
I want to fight for your love till the day I die, Drexler Ong.
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Recounting the past,
I know you for 3 years.
This 3 years that I have been through seems to be the hardest times of my life.
I went through depressions, I went through heart breaking moments,
I witness deaths, I attended funerals, I wasted so much precious time doing nothing, nothing at all. I quit my jobs, I found no purpose in life.
I entered relationships and played with fire.
I burnt myself a hole in my heart, I pursued death,
I seek Hell, I start wasting my life away,
I gave up on everything, I hated the sight of anything,
I wanted to die so badly. I thought, I thought,
I always thought that all these actions, will drive me away.
Away from the reality I am facing daily.
Nothing changes though.
Even though I have been through so much.
Nothing changes.
Reflecting, I dont even think you change.
Ok. Probably you did. Guess you matured up and you found more purpose in life.
You are leading a life that is so carefree and happy now.
I see your facebook photos, I see those smiles, I see those joyous moments and fun you had, I really do envy you.
Envy you for having the courage to walk out of my life.
For not accepting such a failure like me.
For being able to face each day bravely.
I remember, you ever told me once,
To be happy, and not to think too much.
I have to admit, i am one that never stops thinking.
I am very paranoid, sensitive, and i have very low self confidence of myself.
I do not know how to appreciate, and I never had the patience to wait.
Probably that's my character.
Oh well.
What I am trying to say here,
Is not about my past, or any sort of crap to recount them again.
All I really wanted to tell you,
Is,Thank You. Thank you that despite my screwed up life,
and how i wasted myself,
You are always still there as a friend for me.
I love you, D. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My world is filled with Black and white, and all shades of grey.
Do you know why I place my birthday theme B&W?
I was hoping you could be the rainbow to fill my world with colors. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
OMG! You had braces.
HAHA! You look uber adorable, My D. :)
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There was once,
We sat down,
Talk, finding out details about our lives.
Then, I realized, you were always a part of me.
We talked so much, & the sight of your smiles,
They drive me crazy.
You are so charming, those eyes that are so alluring.
D. You are such a nice friend. Such a nice Lover.
Why cant you be mine?_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I tried so hard to reach for your hand.
Despite how hard I tried,
We were never near. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
If i could lie there, buried in snow.
Frozen to death, beautifully,
I would want to preserve a moment.
This moment of me, lying in your arms,
Waiting for you to tell me the 3 most beautiful words, of life. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I told myself not to be affected by you.
I told myself not to be shaken by you.
I told myself, not to let you enter my life once again.
BUT WHY DID I OPEN THE DOOR? _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I am glad that you do not know that this blog exists.
That I am still blogging about that one special you.
Always been in my heart, dwelling on the past and the future.
Even though I really want you to discover this Hidden truth about me,
That I am still in love with you,
I cant make you come to learn about it.
Dear heart, tell me to be strong.
That one day, I can shut my affections for D down.
Completely.
Dear heart, please let the feelings fade,
And not get stronger each time.
Dear heart, extinguish the burning fire inside me.
Replace the flames of passion with a icy cold heart.
A heart that will say no to love.
No love, and L will not get hurt anymore.___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I want you to find out about my existence.
I want you to know that I am here.
I want you to love me.
Oh, Baby! Why cant you see?
We belong together. Aint we suppose to be?
Loving you, Is a Heartache. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Compatibility of Capricorn Woman and Libra Man
The Libra men have lots of desires like making friends, exploring new things, enjoying freedom, but the Capricorn women are kind of mushy, shy and loners.
She gets madden by the flirtatious nature of a Libra man.
Like a Capricorn woman, Libra man also respects and admires intelligent and sensible people.
The Capricorn woman with her pleasant and calm personality may
attract a Libra man but the love seldom lasts for a longer time. There is a very little scope for the pair to stick firmly in the relationship.
If this is true, We are so over.___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You fill my mind.
I hear you speak my name.
I am having the illusions of you and me.
What's crossing your mind now?
Are you thinking of me?
What's all this love and liking about?
Is love a play?
A play that last for just a moment,
And ends with a Sad ending?
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The happiness that we long for is different.
Be it in the inside or the outside.
We share too different views and perspectives.
How can we come together as one? _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Wished our thoughts were intertwined.
Thoughts for a better, loving future. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
One day. I will play you a song.
A song written with my Heart.
The Lyrics that sounds a thousand words. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's still you, after all.
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If only we could start afresh, just like a new sheet of white paper.
How nice would that be.
Trying so hard to recall our past. Trying so hard to forget our past.
I am stuck in this dilemma.
What's the point of loving you for so long, yet,
We never had an ending?
Holding on? Moving on? Looking back? Is there a point?
Do you feel this way? The way i feel?
How I have been feeling for the past 3 years?
I doubt you do.
You are the star that shines brightly on top of the Christmas tree;
You are the cherry that tops every ice cream;
You are the paddler to a kayak, An engine of a car;
You are the sun, giving out warmth;
You are the battery that starts a phone;
You are just so... AMAZING, beyond anything that can be described.
Do you ever know that?
No point telling you so.
For you never know...
3 spinning years, Years that was concealed with darkness,
fear, tears, hurt, betrayal... and all sorts of CRAZY things that none could understand.
D, if our hearts were together as one when I gave you my heart,
What could things turn out to be now?
Pretty images? We see the word FOREVER?
We have our hearts glued as one? We perfect each other's imperfections?
Will we drive couples to envy us? Will we make the world want to be like us?
We could hold hands and walk down the aisle?
We could go so far to do many many things together as one?
We can have the best of all worlds?
Will we? Could we?
No.
Delusions. All make up beliefs.
I really doubt that we would live happily ever after.
If we did get together,
Of cause, everything would have been different.
However, how far can we go?
Do you love me?
Are you even fond on me?
Yes, you admit that you were moved by me,
BUT! How many times can i move your heart?
I cant always be the one, always spilling my heart out.
You got to spell yours.
Just talking about friendship will do.
3 years, and we are still... SO FAR APART!
I dont know where are we heading towards now...
Your life, my life...
We are 2 different worlds.
I am stained, while you are as pure as ever.
It's hard to believe. It's hard to achieve.
Yet, the hardest, is to accept.
Looking, looking at you,
through all kinds of ways the cyber world brings me to,
You make me think.
Think about YOU.
Hey D. You know something?
I dont know if you feel this way,
But You really do make my heart skipped like a thousand beats when I am out with you.
I think I am strike with infatuation again.
I think I just want you too badly, as compared to the past.
Let's move on.
Move on to the future.
If we are meant to be together,
Nothing, No one, will draw us apart.
I miss how close we use to be.
I hate how far apart we have grown.
I want the old US back.
You know, you know.
I Love You till the end.
I miss US.
Been a while since i came here and pen down my thoughts again. How are you? I always wanted to ask. I saw those happy faces, those grins you wore, those eyes that were interlocked between you and her. It proved that, She's the one, that can bring the sunshine into your life, the one that share all your pains and burdens when you are in need. Sorry D. I realized, despite me being so madly in love with you, i really knew nothing about you at all. I cant make you smile as often as how she does, I cant even share a single of your pain. I failed as a friend, and I failed more as one that loves you so deeply. Forgive me, will you? I will stop being the hindrance in your life. I will move on, and get a life. Live it well. You too. Alright? I love you, D, but I know, it's better this way, that you end up with G. Be happy. You were the most painful memory, as well as the most beautiful one. I will cherish it, and never forget. Your name's imprinted on my mind, my heart, and my soul, forever. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's valentines day today.
It's grief day for me.
Have fun, laughter, and joy with G.
I wish the best for u and her.
Be loved, D. Be loved. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
The heartaches and the pain never go away.
The sufferings from love will continue to take flight in a failed chapter of love.
The fear of moving on can be compared to the fear of jumping off a cliff.
The failure of loving one can never be overwritten.
The step to take the leap of faith to go on can never be achieved alone.
The phone keeps beeping, but no messages are from you.
The long forgotten existence of me is just a part of how you forgo me.
The thought of taking your own life, is true and it’s fearful.
The anatomy of love is to love with all your might, and bless the one you love with happiness.
The goal of never to love again, can never be accomplished when you keep poking your nose into my life.
The beauty of imperfections makes me want to perfect them.
The moment to love again can never be attempted. It’s cursed and its ban and it will never start again.
The stares and glares that we attracted as well walk together, makes me feel so love. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Blogging and crying at the same time. Think u can guess how I m felling.
It's really nice to spend an evening with u. Without any
Held backs, worries and stuff. It's tough to face this alone.
I know this day will end, and it will end between our friendship too.
Things will be very very different when move on with her.
I can't love that D that once belonged to me, as he belongs to someone
Else now. I can't care for u as before for I know, someone is
There for u already.
You won't need me in your life anymore.
I will just be the long forgotten seed that had not grown out of the soil.
No one will water me, or give me food.
A lonely valentines day with such weary heart.
It's full of thorns n cuts. A heart that...
That doesn't not even love anymore.
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BABY! We are finally spending the day together this year.
FINALLY! :)
Should i be happy or what? OMG!
I hope you lorve your presents! Spent quite some time and effort,
to go around Singapore looking for them. :D
OH D! You just gave me the light to survive this week.
For the 13th, it's worth all hardwork. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Happy Lunar New Year, Baby. I wished you were here. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Hello Drexler.
I am really thankful to have u as a friend of mine.
Be it if we remain as best friends in future, or we go further ahead,
I am still thankful that are in my life.
There are so many things that you may not know about me,
But I am certainly hoping you know one thing,
How much I Love You.
My heart search through the past, as we were on the line a moment ago.
I found that. It's still racing, at fast pace,
To catch a breath of the words you were engraving into my heart.
I lie awake, trying not to think about you.
All the things about you, And you know the answer.
I cant.
Your love will be safe with me, baby.
It's a promise. I am acting like as though it's not a big deal,
But the night when you said those words,
they were a KILLER. It was really breaking my heart.
The thought of you not facing the truth, is rather heart wrenching too.
I dont wanna tell you how we are meant to be together,
and how great things will be, if we are together.
HOWEVER. If you dont come to see it,
Things will still be the same, be it 60 years down the lane.
D, if we are together, nothing is impossible.
If we are divided, things all will fail.
Round and round, in circles we go,
Till the day, when you realised, could be the day,
When we die. Sad thing isnt it?
Have you ever fallen in love with someone u shouldnt fallen in love with?
That's how i am feeling now.
It's like from the start, it's wrong.
Yet, i cling on to this love, always wanting a reply from it.
Sad thing. Oh sad life.
You never realised, how much you like someone,
until you watch them like somebody else.
I really hope things wont turn out to such situation, D.
I know you want a good and happy ending.
So do i.
Our hearts should unite one day, Drexler.
Dont play the game of hide and seek.
It wont be fun anymore if this game continues.
Unless... You are testing me.
Wanting me to wait a life time for you.
I could and I will.
We both have no idea if we're gonna be together in the end,
But one thing's for sure,
I will do everything I can, to make it happen.
It's worth the fight, seriously.
I am not gonna let go of this battle.
Even if i know i'm gonna lose.
I will love you, for the longest days of my life.
It's a promise I have for you,
My lorver, D. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
making this the last post if it's possible.
I want to let go. Let go of you completely. I cannot hold on to you anymore. It's so so tiring. My life's laying flat because of you. I see all the dull colors in life.
I cant flap my wings and fly, i keep holding back. I bite my teeth, holding back the chill, not to fall for another's passion. You think those phrases on facebook are for who? They are all telling you. Telling you right into your face, how i really felt. You dont give a damm. You dont even wanna care. You can be going through your lousiest moment, but you have GEORGINA! i have no one. I keep rejecting people. I fear to repeat the same replacement love I went through just because of you. I am not blaming you, BUT! I am just so tired. I prayed. Prayed to the God above that someday we will start again, coz you are the one i ever loved. The feeling of first love. The pure and platonic Love. It's no longer like that. You dont love me. You dont even care. You fucking left me, here, all shattered in pieces. I cant even pick myself up. I walk a life of fear and loneliness. I never felt so bad. In and Out of DEPRESSION. Cuts and scars, EVERYTHING. You never know. You never knew! I have never been ok. We are so far. Actually, i wanted to give u this link when you get enlisted. Getting you all encouraged to move on with the new phase of life. Wanting you to know that i am always here, loving you. However. I see it impossible now. You do not want me anymore. You do not even want to care for me as a friend. It's very obvious. We should put an end with it. Our love. A love that never blossoms. Just like the song, we say see you later, but it never happens. NEVER. WE could never go one more round. Your heart refuse to take the risk. Your heart's all protected. You fear that when you fall for one again, you will get hurt again. SAME HERE. BUT I love you. I really do. I never wanted an ending with you. Never would i even want to put an end to this love. I wish i could love you, from today, till... Till I leave this world. I wish I could hold on to the hands of yours, and keep holding it, till I get buried. You really thought holding on to you for 3 years, was an easy journey? What do you think of wanting to talk to you, but always feared of getting hurt by you? My heart cant take it anymore. I dont regret this love, and i never will. Wishing you all the best as a lover, and as a friend. Please. I dont want this to end. I really dont want it to end, but it got to. We have to part one day. Goodbye, D. Goodbye the one that Lindis loves most. I dont need an answer, I dont need a word from you. If you do love me, or ever love me, I would like to tell you, I love you too. D, I love you____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
A hug? can you please give me a hug? I am feeling so weak.
I am dying of your love, love of my life.
FUCK. AND YOU JUST STABBED ME! by thinking that i am a materialistic girl.
SIGHS. Drexler Ong. CANT YOU FEEL ME?
I cant feel you anymore. You changed so much.
You no longer love me. Or maybe. You dont even like me anymore. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I finally understood what true love meant... Love meant that you cared for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face may be. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You will never know pain until you look into the eyes of someone you love, and they look away. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
因為我很愛你，不想要你放棄愛情。
尤其這段得來不易。
我愛你，真的是很愛你，所以想，就這樣繼續愛下去。
時間在改變，请你不要改變。 ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I've already said that I don't need no love.
But boy since i've met you my heartbeat just won't stop.
All I see is you never thought that I would.
But then you fly me up, high above the sky with your love.
At times I feel like I can't go on, no.
And the world is against me.
I know that you'll be there for me,
To catch my fall like Superman. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I dont wanna blog about you tonight.
My heart's grieving.
It's like so fucked up. I cant choose.
If i have to choose. I choose you. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You never knew why I moved on.
You never knew why it was Wei Jie.
Think about it.
Why Wei Jie?
Why do I even choose such a guy like him?
You know it well.
Dont you? Drexler Ong WEI JIE.
A replacement.
It was all just a replacement of you.
I thought that from another Wei Jie,
i could find the same feelings that I had for you.
At first, I thought me and him were forever.
Till. You said. I guess, He is just not the right one for you.
You made me search my heart, so deep till I was scared.
What's the end result of a statement from you?
I left him. I left him for you.
I told you reasons, reasons that Me myself cant even believe.
Did you even see it?
Please dont think that I am blaming you.
I just want to let you know that, many things that i do in life,
are oftentimes closely related to you.
It's like... Every decision, every thought, every action, just revolves around you.
Someday, You will know, and when you find out about how much I have done for you,
It will probably be too late. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Miles and miles apart. We never ever got close.
Till today, we are still so far away. A dream.
A dream that can never be true. Lindis, You have got to wake up.
This love aint a fairytale. Things i want, will never come my way.
This love is so wrong. It's a never, a no and it's forbidden.
9 alphabets away. Never once near. D and L, we are just filled by so many others between us. We can never touch, never meet.
Can i say, I am just not the right one for you?____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Guess even the world's most heart shattering moments, quotes, words, movies, and anything can hold any comparison to how One's heartache can be.
It kills so much. Be it physically or emotionally.
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Never wanted to bid you goodbye everytime we part. I dont want an ending, D.
I know that one day, you will be mine.
It's always this song that reminds me of you. We count our hearts,
We count the days we spend together. You dont realise,
that how much i need your love. How much i want to care
and love you with all my heart. I always hope,
hoping for the day that we will come around and
love each other whole heartedly. It's not gonna happened, Lindis.
I am well aware of that, and i am so sure that.
A day, without Lindis in your life, wont even make a wheeny bit of difference.
Even if one day, I leave this world, without you knowing,
You will probably be still leading your Perfect Life.
Guess my heart will forever be shattered and broken.
No one can mend it, except for... YOU. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Living in misery without your love. Sighs. U will never see.____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
To be your friend, was all I ever wanted.
To be your lorver, is all I can ever dream of. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My Lorver, do you still remember that I like stitch? Remember when you went to HK, and you got me that pair of lovers? I still keep it... As i was hoping, one day, You could be my stitch, while I be your angel. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
18 January is over. Today's the 19.
Do you still remember me, heartache?
If you could see that I'm the only one that understands you,
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me. Have you ever thought that just maybe,
You really do belong with me, D? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Hello D.
Today's my birthday.
I am so happy that you did text me, and wished me.
0118, despite the delay of time, i felt the sincerity in it.
I really wanted to let you know, I love you.
These words didnt come out though.
Charm made me these cupcakes that had the words HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND,
and it had Double D.
See! You just cant get out of my mind, lover.
I get so remembered by you, that everything around me that could possibly reflect you, are all so pleasant to me.
Drexler Ong, when can i tell you my true feelings for you?
I dont want to be friends, I want to be more than that.
Can't you see, Baby?
Can I have a birthday wish, that... You will LOVE me back??? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Till today, I still dont have the courage to say anything.
You say I should take it naturally.
If You are interested in me, you would let me know.
I doubt so. I really doubt you would let me know.
This battle is failing.
I am losing all of you. Sighs. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I am thinking back. Thinking back to how we were 3 years ago.
You turned me down because you had someone else in mind.
You turned me down, probably because you felt that, I was not good enough for you.
Oh D. Why cant you see? I moved on as you never wanted me.
And now. After 3 years, I am back to square one.
Wanting you as bad I use to.
What can i do?
Should i confess or should i hide?__________________________________________________________________________________________________________
DIE! I found your twitter. What should i do?
Should i follow you? OR... Should i just leave it alone? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
The union of a Libra and Capricorn can go either ways - it can be a romantic bliss or a disappointing match. Everything would depend on the level of adjustment both of them are ready to make. On the face of it, the two may seem to be quite different from each other. Their areas of interest are wide apart - while a Libra loves to communicate with people and is a social animal; the Capricorn is a complete opposite. She prefers to be alone, inside her house and love quiet surroundings and is extremely down-to-earth.
The differences in the way they express their emotions and feelings also pose a threat for the couple. While the Goat is least expressive, Libra is crystal clear about his feelings. However, things can turn in their favor with a little bit of adjustment and understanding. While the Libran would help the Capricorn to get over any kind of pressures she is facing, the former would, in turn, will get rewarded with the security she is looking for. The key to this relationship understands from both the partners and lots of adjustment.
Libra Man & Capricorn Woman
The coming together of a Libra man and a Capricorn woman is like attraction between two opposite things. There is vast difference in the two and their relationship may result in a lot of conflict and clash. While she loves to be on her own and likes to be organized, he loves to explore new avenues and is less organized than her, enough to create problems. Though the Libra male is not flirtatious by nature, he loves being the center of attraction and that can make her go green with envy. Compromise and adjustment can alone make the relationship work.
OH MY! please be true. D. I want you to read this so badly,
That it is still possible between us.
Horoscope__________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Can I grow stronger and form a wall that will filter everything about you off my thoughts, my heart and my mind? I cant seem to get you out of my mind. You have toxify it till... Even when i close my eyes, I can visually see u. I am so dead. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
We are picture, future perfect, Lorver. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Cant we give it a try?
Tomorrow's My 21st Birthday.
Can I make a wish to God,
That you can be a Christian, and we can be together till forever?
I know it's a selfish wish, but I want you so badly.
What can i do, Tell me, D, What can I do?
After 3 years, I am still back at square one. Pleading you back.
Only you, can be my MR R._____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
While you were talking about Dulcet Lorve, it have already all started with You.
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Can I be random and tell you, I dont love you?
And that all this while, It's just Me being silly, Holding on to this false hope of life? _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
If only the names on the paper can merge together as one.
How wonderful would that be.
We were sitting by the quay,
& I played the game of Introduction. I want to know you again.
I wanted to start afresh with you, But. I guess, you didnt catch it.
I have your number, but it doesnt mean we can reverse back to the past, D.
It does not mean that We can be as close as we used to.
You would never give me a second chance already. I know that. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
A brave dude in shining armor.
HAHA! Or probably a brave knight.
I am chatting with you on MSN now, as I blog this entry down.
You are one brave chap.
I think you must have hurt alot, but you dont show it out.
I am talking about your wrist.
I feel You, D.
AND! you are still so adorable, telling me about changing colors on your braces.
HAWT AND ADORABLE DUDE, I am totally smitten by you.
HAHA! And you are settling on red for your braces coz of CNY.
I love you, D. I hope this obsession of you wont last.
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A sprain, just a sprain, or maybe an injury on your right wrist,
AND! It's killing me. I am dead worried about you.
Be careful, D. You can play hard, but must take care of yourself. Isnt it?
It's your power hand, Drexler Ong.
You better go see a physician soon.
You can be busy, or occupied or wadeva,
But please take care of yourself.
It hurts to see you in pain, yet, I cant do anything to help you.
My heart's aching.
Sorry, D.
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Dont be a player.
Please dont ever consider a single thought of being a player.
Come on Drexler. You are on guy that I look upon so highly.
You cant simply let yourself down like that.
D, all my friends that I know, as in all the dudes I know,
Cant even hold a candle as compared to u.
You are just so complete, so wonderful,
God made you so beautifully, and i Love you.
Dont even let that thought come across your mind ever again.
Alright?
There's was once, when we were having dinner together at 85,
You shared with me, that. If you were to rewind back,
Back to those days when you were in secondary school,
You unleash yourself, and be wild,
Probably you will be a totally different person today.
Let me tell you this. If I could unwind to the past,
And you let me choose again to know the old or the reformed you,
I would still choose the current, most charming Drexler Ong Wei Jie ever, to be my friend.
Dont let the world pull you down.
Dont let the BAD SIDE tear you apart.
Drexler, dont let me down.
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I regret for telling you so much.
The day was fun, but the night was fearful.
I have got a confession to make.
I wanted to hug you so badly that night.
I wanted to tell you, how much i wanted you.
Sorry D. I am sorry.
I am a piece of paper stained with dirt, N it can never be clean and pure again. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You are one guy, that I can never read the thoughts of.
You are one dude, that always uphold yourself all the way up there.
You are one fellow, that can touch a girl's heart with just one word.
You are one person, that is so faithful that, a girl would never want to break your heart.
You are the one that holds the master key to my locked up heart. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
OMG! I am so god darn jealous.
Who is georgina?
Who is she to make you stay with her throughout her entire gastric flu?
She's so lucky and I am full of envies.
If only you were to know that I am sick for the past one week,
And that you would actually come down and take care of me.
How amazing can that be? ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's 2011. It's been 3 years.
21st is coming.
I fear for that day to come.
3 years of knowing, as though it was like the past.
When we used to work together, and see each other's faces everyday.
We were still young, talking commonly about our results.
You fared much better, and you move on to RP.
I was stuck, and i attempt to retake my O's,
But i failed, even though you gave me encouragement to move on.
When you stepped into RP, we started to drift.
The distance between us, got further and wider apart.
I do not hear your voice as often anymore, and the worst part was,
We stopped texting each other very soon.
I moved on to my airport career, thinking I would really find the right one in there.
Results: Things didnt turn out as how I thought it would be.
Conclusion: I really regret all my past actions, D. Can I turn back time and we go back to how we used to be?
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3 years, and i just realised.
We do not even have any pictures taken together.
Woah. What does this mean man?_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Came across this quote on facebook.
True love is when you are fighting all day, saying things u don't mean to say, but at the end of the day... there's no one else's arms u'd rather be in.
I want to fight for your love till the day I die, Drexler Ong.
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Recounting the past,
I know you for 3 years.
This 3 years that I have been through seems to be the hardest times of my life.
I went through depressions, I went through heart breaking moments,
I witness deaths, I attended funerals, I wasted so much precious time doing nothing, nothing at all. I quit my jobs, I found no purpose in life.
I entered relationships and played with fire.
I burnt myself a hole in my heart, I pursued death,
I seek Hell, I start wasting my life away,
I gave up on everything, I hated the sight of anything,
I wanted to die so badly. I thought, I thought,
I always thought that all these actions, will drive me away.
Away from the reality I am facing daily.
Nothing changes though.
Even though I have been through so much.
Nothing changes.
Reflecting, I dont even think you change.
Ok. Probably you did. Guess you matured up and you found more purpose in life.
You are leading a life that is so carefree and happy now.
I see your facebook photos, I see those smiles, I see those joyous moments and fun you had, I really do envy you.
Envy you for having the courage to walk out of my life.
For not accepting such a failure like me.
For being able to face each day bravely.
I remember, you ever told me once,
To be happy, and not to think too much.
I have to admit, i am one that never stops thinking.
I am very paranoid, sensitive, and i have very low self confidence of myself.
I do not know how to appreciate, and I never had the patience to wait.
Probably that's my character.
Oh well.
What I am trying to say here,
Is not about my past, or any sort of crap to recount them again.
All I really wanted to tell you,
Is,Thank You. Thank you that despite my screwed up life,
and how i wasted myself,
You are always still there as a friend for me.
I love you, D. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My world is filled with Black and white, and all shades of grey.
Do you know why I place my birthday theme B&W?
I was hoping you could be the rainbow to fill my world with colors. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
OMG! You had braces.
HAHA! You look uber adorable, My D. :)
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There was once,
We sat down,
Talk, finding out details about our lives.
Then, I realized, you were always a part of me.
We talked so much, & the sight of your smiles,
They drive me crazy.
You are so charming, those eyes that are so alluring.
D. You are such a nice friend. Such a nice Lover.
Why cant you be mine?_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I tried so hard to reach for your hand.
Despite how hard I tried,
We were never near. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
If i could lie there, buried in snow.
Frozen to death, beautifully,
I would want to preserve a moment.
This moment of me, lying in your arms,
Waiting for you to tell me the 3 most beautiful words, of life. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I told myself not to be affected by you.
I told myself not to be shaken by you.
I told myself, not to let you enter my life once again.
BUT WHY DID I OPEN THE DOOR? _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I am glad that you do not know that this blog exists.
That I am still blogging about that one special you.
Always been in my heart, dwelling on the past and the future.
Even though I really want you to discover this Hidden truth about me,
That I am still in love with you,
I cant make you come to learn about it.
Dear heart, tell me to be strong.
That one day, I can shut my affections for D down.
Completely.
Dear heart, please let the feelings fade,
And not get stronger each time.
Dear heart, extinguish the burning fire inside me.
Replace the flames of passion with a icy cold heart.
A heart that will say no to love.
No love, and L will not get hurt anymore.___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I want you to find out about my existence.
I want you to know that I am here.
I want you to love me.
Oh, Baby! Why cant you see?
We belong together. Aint we suppose to be?
Loving you, Is a Heartache. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Compatibility of Capricorn Woman and Libra Man
The Libra men have lots of desires like making friends, exploring new things, enjoying freedom, but the Capricorn women are kind of mushy, shy and loners.
She gets madden by the flirtatious nature of a Libra man.
Like a Capricorn woman, Libra man also respects and admires intelligent and sensible people.
The Capricorn woman with her pleasant and calm personality may
attract a Libra man but the love seldom lasts for a longer time. There is a very little scope for the pair to stick firmly in the relationship.
If this is true, We are so over.___________________________________________________________________________________________________________
You fill my mind.
I hear you speak my name.
I am having the illusions of you and me.
What's crossing your mind now?
Are you thinking of me?
What's all this love and liking about?
Is love a play?
A play that last for just a moment,
And ends with a Sad ending?
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The happiness that we long for is different.
Be it in the inside or the outside.
We share too different views and perspectives.
How can we come together as one? _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Wished our thoughts were intertwined.
Thoughts for a better, loving future. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
One day. I will play you a song.
A song written with my Heart.
The Lyrics that sounds a thousand words. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
It's still you, after all.
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If only we could start afresh, just like a new sheet of white paper.
How nice would that be.
Trying so hard to recall our past. Trying so hard to forget our past.
I am stuck in this dilemma.
What's the point of loving you for so long, yet,
We never had an ending?
Holding on? Moving on? Looking back? Is there a point?
Do you feel this way? The way i feel?
How I have been feeling for the past 3 years?
I doubt you do.
You are the star that shines brightly on top of the Christmas tree;
You are the cherry that tops every ice cream;
You are the paddler to a kayak, An engine of a car;
You are the sun, giving out warmth;
You are the battery that starts a phone;
You are just so... AMAZING, beyond anything that can be described.
Do you ever know that?
No point telling you so.
For you never know...
3 spinning years, Years that was concealed with darkness,
fear, tears, hurt, betrayal... and all sorts of CRAZY things that none could understand.
D, if our hearts were together as one when I gave you my heart,
What could things turn out to be now?
Pretty images? We see the word FOREVER?
We have our hearts glued as one? We perfect each other's imperfections?
Will we drive couples to envy us? Will we make the world want to be like us?
We could hold hands and walk down the aisle?
We could go so far to do many many things together as one?
We can have the best of all worlds?
Will we? Could we?
No.
Delusions. All make up beliefs.
I really doubt that we would live happily ever after.
If we did get together,
Of cause, everything would have been different.
However, how far can we go?
Do you love me?
Are you even fond on me?
Yes, you admit that you were moved by me,
BUT! How many times can i move your heart?
I cant always be the one, always spilling my heart out.
You got to spell yours.
Just talking about friendship will do.
3 years, and we are still... SO FAR APART!
I dont know where are we heading towards now...
Your life, my life...
We are 2 different worlds.
I am stained, while you are as pure as ever.
It's hard to believe. It's hard to achieve.
Yet, the hardest, is to accept.
Looking, looking at you,
through all kinds of ways the cyber world brings me to,
You make me think.
Think about YOU.
Hey D. You know something?
I dont know if you feel this way,
But You really do make my heart skipped like a thousand beats when I am out with you.
I think I am strike with infatuation again.
I think I just want you too badly, as compared to the past.
Let's move on.
Move on to the future.
If we are meant to be together,
Nothing, No one, will draw us apart.
I miss how close we use to be.
I hate how far apart we have grown.
I want the old US back.
You know, you know.
I Love You till the end.
I miss US.
